I Am She and She is Me

she is me.

an excerpt from the heartbroken diaries - 

there was a boy who broke my heart. actually there were five. we were all a swirl of ambition and heartache, the six of us.  we were kids and we were lovers. and he broke my heart. and i broke his. and i'm a creep so i saw the girl whose heart was a part of the swirl before and i realized we are one and the same. isn't it funny how nature works out that way? how it is so desperate to heal from all the wounds? it wants to heal and it connects us with the medium to heal but not the tools we need. that's what humans are supposed to be for. but instead we keep on breaking and aching and trying again.

i am she.

in all her hopeful ways. in all her beauty and her pain and her strength. we are the same. different in ways i will never know. same in the ways that matter, that help me heal.  you see, she is a lover and a fighter.  she wants to change and grow, and hell, so do i. that's why all five of them came into our lives. because we just wanted to evolve into the amazing humans we are becoming.  we know the deepest change comes from a long relationship, full of dirty work and shameless commitment. thing is, we won't quit searching. evolution is in favor of the woman, and we are resilient creatures, made to suffer through the toughest of the tough, made to smooth the roughest of the rough - so we gather the broken edges of wonderful partners and we swear we are going to change the world. one love at a time. and we wake up and greet new days.  through the depression, numbness, anxiety, panic, manic, trauma, we allow our strong, weathered, weary hearts to see another winter, another spring, another summer, another lover. and then....we fall.